I am feeling a lot better than I did a few days ago. I don't have to set fire to my butt now to wake up :)
I am so damn tired that I should have butt scabs from dragging it. I wonder what the hell is wrong with me.
I have been a bit disjointed lately and I think it may show on here. I have no intention of giving this blog up because I like to write too much.
I recently had a 33 year old repressed memory issue surface in an ugly fashion. I am not sure if I will share it here or not, I probably will. I was unaware of it until I was talking to somebody, and then totally lost my composure.
Repressed memory is an ugly thing- it is real, and it can blow like a volcano at an inopportune moment. Looking back, the warning signs were there, I just didn't know it.
What I will say is this had nothing to do with molestation or anything with my family.
It was something I witnessed.
I have had a few emails asking about my grandmother, and I want to thank all of you who did.
She is now in a rehab place in Gainesville,Georgia. She had a rare bilateral stroke, one that affects both sides of the brain.
Her left eye is still closed, and she is weak on the right side.
She recalls the events of last Tuesday up until the stroke, then next remembers being loaded onto the ambulance.
My grandmother had a bilateral stroke, which, according to one statistic I saw, occurs 1 in 1,000,000.
This type of stroke affects both sides of the brain.
Same shit, different day. Makes me think because I had a small stroke myself. I realize how lucky I was, and hope to avoid it from happening again.
My grandmother collapsed from an apparent stroke near Atlanta this morning, and she isn't doing well. That is why I posted so late today.
At this moment in 92 days I will turn 40.
I don't fart dust.
I don't pee rust.
I am not "under the hill."
I haven't mistaken my ass for a scratch and sniff toy.
I guess I am doing ok :)
I went somewhere with my dad tonight and had to wear a shirt and tie. The last time I wore this was in May at the memorial service for my co-worker Kenny.
Since then I started taking a medication that causes weight gain.
I couldn't get the shirt buttoned past my chest.
SHIT!!
However I found a pullover that worked better, and just wore a suit coat over it.
I feel like a pregnant yak :(
Even though he was my former father in law, he never gave me any trouble. He died 5 years ago today, at this moment, on his 69th birthday.
After having the stents removed, I feel like walking on clouds. I even went and did 30 minutes on an Elliptical Trainer today, and some punishing leg presses. I'm a bit tired, but pleased with myself.
The bi-lateral stents were a bitch, I could only do like 10 or 15 minutes on a treadmill and they would scratch the inside of my bladder so bad I would pee blood for the rest of the day.
Some people are unaware of what a stent is, so here is a link for you to see what they are:
http://www.device.com.au/specialities/_specialities_sub_group_details.asp?id=160
After 334 days, I am pain free :) On Oct. 15, 2003 when I had a lithotripsy done, they inserted bi-lateral stents in both ureters. The ends of the stents were in the bladder, so I felt an urge to pee almost constantly since then. I couldn't go on the treadmill without the damn things scratching the inside of the bladder and causing bleeding.
I feel like dancing :)
My surgery took a little over an hour, I am finally stone free :)
Now- on to my next problem- carpal tunnel.
Will resume blogging tomorrow :)
I have another laser lithotripsy tomorrow, so I will be silent for a day or so. I hope this is the last one.
I said that last time, and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that,and the time before that.
Did I mention I said that before? :P
Being that I was born in Texas, I found this amusing:)
Rules to Enter Texas : Applies to each person as they enter Texas . Learn & remember: East Coast and California-types pay particular attention! 1. Pull your stupid droopy pants up. You look like an idiot. 2. Let's get this straight; it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 3. They are cattle & oil wells. That's what they smell like to you. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-20 and I-10 go east and west, I-35 goes north and south. Pick one. 4. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 cotton strippers that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 5. So every person in every pickup waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 6. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of doves are coming in, we WILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time. 7. Yeah, we eat catfish & crawfish. You really want sushi & caviar? It's available at the corner bait shop. 8. The "Opener" refers to the first day of deer season. It's a religious holiday held the closest Saturday to the first of November. 9. We open doors for women. That is applied to all women, regardless of age. 10. No, there's no "vegetarian special" on the menu. Order steak. Or you can order the Chef's Salad and pick off the 2 pounds of ham & turkey. 11. When we fill out a table, there are three main dishes: meats, vegetables, an d breads. We use three spices: salt, pepper, and Picante Sauce. Oh, yeah.... We don't care what you folks in Cincinnati call that stuff you eat... It AIN'T REAL CHILI!! Chili was born and bred in San Antonio .... and real chili never met a tomato! 12. You bring "coke" into my house, it better be brown, wet, and served over ice. You bring "Mary Jane" into my house, she better be cute, know how to shoot, drive a truck, and have long hair. 13. College and High School Football is as important here as the Lakers and the Knicks, and a dang site more fun to watch. 14. Yeah, we have golf courses. But don't hit the water hazards - it spooks the fish. 15. Colleges? Try Texas , Texas A&M or Texas Tech. They come outta there with an education plus a love for God and country, and they still wave at passing pickups when they come for the holidays. 16. We have more folks in the Army, Navy, Air Force, and Marines, than any other state, so "Don't Mess with Texas ." If you do, you will get whipped by the best. 17. Always remember what our great governor Sam Houston once said: " Texas can make it without the United States , but the United States can't make it without Texas ."
I went to bed with the hiccups, awakened with the hiccups.... now I am wondering what the hell is going on. It has been 10 hours with the damn thing.
My 1,000th visitor was here at 1:48:53 from Chagrin Falls, Ohio.
It was a Google search thread for the Ohio man beaten for peeping on a 5 year old.
This is a fun thing to do if you have too much time on your hands.
1. I am a single dad of a teenage girl.
2. I could name all the Presidents when I was 5 years old.
3.I have seen Richard Nixon, Ronald Reagan, George Bush 41.
4. I shook hands with Bill Clinton. I later hoped he washed his hands earlier that day.
5. I lived in Germany and spoke the language between age 5 and 9.
6. I only recall German Swear words.
7. I speak Spanish, but have never been south of the border.
8. I have no pets.
9. I usually watch the same videos over and over again.
10.I love Trivial Pursuit and Jeopardy.
11. I married at age 25.
12. Divorced at age 31.
13. Won't do that again.
14. I have seen tornadoes.
15. I have been in earthquakes.
16. I shit my pants- usually during the quakes.
17. If a liar was on fire, I wouldn't piss on them.
18. I weigh too much.
19. I am a stroke survivor.
20. I graduated in the top 10 % of my H.S. Class.
21. I tried 5 times to go to college.
22. Got screwed out of it 5 times.
23. I get taken advantage of easily.
24. I have a long shit list of those who do that.
25. I am embarrassed about 21-24
26. I love photography.
27. I hate photos of me.
28. I have metal in my spine.
29. I have had close calls with death.
30. I have lived in 5 states.
31. I am a Raiders fan- deal with it.
32. I heard my mom and dad say "fuck" a few times.
33. I couldn't believe it.
34. I like weight training.
35. I have had 3 car accidents.
36. I like astronomy, not astrology.
37. I like to travel.
38. I have been to Alaska
39. I like watching Law and Order
40. I like all types of music.
41. I hate tattoos
42. I don't have one.
43. I played the Clarinet in school.
44. I hate summer.
45. I like Spring and Fall.
46. I am puzzled about people going gaga about Britney Spears.
47. I have 2 brothers.
48. I hate it when people play on loyalty to get at you.
49. I farted once in public, blamed it on a kid with a smelly diaper.
50. I like guns.
51. I am not a postal worker.
52. I have been called "complex".
53. I have dated older women.
54. One was 17 years older than me.
55. I am not comfortable around men.
56. I hate my name
57. I can impersonate Ronald Reagan, Beavis & Butthead, and Marvin the Martian.
58. I can be brutally silent to those who crap on my corn flakes.
59. I don't like the outdoors too much.
60. I have never been arrested.
61. I don't drink.
62. I don't date much anymore.
63. I hate traitors.
64. I am related to Aaron Burr.
65. I knew my great grandmother.
66. I am fascinated by people who are self assured.
67. I actually can't imagine it.
68. I got drunk by accident once on cough syrup.
69. I hated it. ( It was mis-labeled )
70. I am almost 40.
71. I just started wearing glasses.
72. I'm not wearing them now.
73. I am an "Air Force Brat."
74. I was born at Sheppard AFB Texas.
75. I wanted to go into the Air Force, but failed the physical.
76. I tried to become a deputy.
77. Didn't do well on the obstacle course.
78. Never got over that.
79. I like emails.
80. I should be doing other things.
81. I am an independent thinker.
82. I should be eating my pizza- it's getting cold.
83. I nearly fell in the hole for my grandmother's coffin.
84. I said "Whoa, shit."
85. I was a pallbearer for a 7 month old girl once.
86. I ran away from kindergarten.
87. I rear ended a bomb squad truck once.
88. I was once pulled over at gunpoint by police in a case of mistaken identity.
89. I am a Capricorn, born on Elvis' 30th birthday.
90. I once met a 104 year old man.
91. I knew a German man who lost his arm fighting Patton in the Black Forest.
92. I want to be more organized.
93. I once assisted detaining arson suspects.
94. My first plane flight was across the Atlantic.
95. Many of my relatives sailed on the Brooklyn from New York to San Francisco.
96. I have visited Italy, France, Holland, Austria and other European Countries.
97. I sleep with a fan on, no matter what the season is.
98. I also sleep with an oxygen mask.
99. I lost my grandfather and was divorced on the same day.
100. My kindergarten teacher told my parents I would either grow up to be President of the United States or head of the Mafia.
I became so incredibly tired last night- went to bed at 7:30, and woke up at 1:00. My system is so screwed up right now I can't tell my butt from my elbow.
The surgeon did his best yesterday....
but the stone is imbedded in the wall of the left ureter, and he had to stop due to excessive bleeding.
So- I am assuming it will be done again.
Dammit Dammit Sombitch.....
This sucks......
I may skip town today just to get away from it all for a short time.
Tomorrow is yet another laser lithotripsy.
At best, and what I am hoping for is to go in and they see the stones are gone in an X-Ray, and I won't have to be "invaded." All they would need to do is remove the stent (which won't hurt as bad).
So- my blogging may be light for the next few days.
I am not "petering out." :P
Updated July 8th.
I am a 39 year old male, single parent of a teenage girl.
I currently live east of Reno, Nv. I am 5 foot 7, brown hair, hazel eyes, just recently got glasses:(
I weigh too much but I'm working on that.
I am a wanna-be journalist. It was my life long desire to become a broadcast journalist, but that didn't pan out.
The lesson from that is: Don't rely on a person's word - you will get screwed.
As a result, I work in the grocery industry.
I like photography,Football,astronomy,blogging, etc.
I have no tattoos, I don't drink or smoke, so my favorite drink is Coke.
I have no girlfriends, but applications are being accepted. Materialistic jerk-offs are not accepted. :P
I was born in Texas, lived in Colorado,Germany,Illinois,California, and Nevada.
During all that, I managed to see about 10 different countries and 25 states.
The most beautiful states I have been to are Colorado and Alaska.
When I die, I want to be buried with my bare butt sticking out of the ground, so everyone can kiss my ass.
I like email, but if you email me something stupid I will post your email address and let the spammers get it.
You've been told!
My email address is SPAMdesertSUCKSraspberryAToasisolDOTcom